Learning to trust God

“Do you believe in God?”
Of course! I do believe in God!
“Do you trust God?”
Err?yup!
“Do you trust God with all of your life? Without any doubts?”
Uhm…I guess so…



Trust = Firm belief in someone or something; acceptance of the truth of a statement without evidence or investigation



Trusting God is really not a simple thing! It’s a process! Let me tell you an example…



I used to play a game with my brother when we were kids. This game was based on trust;
We called it “blind man walking”.
The blind man must walk with eyes closed from a certain spot to a desired spot. The rule was simple, do not open the eyes, when he opens his eyes, he lose the game! But the good news is the blind man won’t walk alone. He’s accompanied by a partner who holds his hand all the time, and directs him to the desired spot with his voice. The blind man just listens to his partner’s voice.



We used to play in our small house where things all around. When I became ‘the partner’ I gave my instructions very clearly (I guess so), “there’s a chair in front of you, move your steps to the rights!” “on your left is a cupboard, oh! you almost step on a magazine!” it’s not only that, sometimes I grabbed his hand or pulled him harshly to avoid him hit something.


When it’s my turn to be ‘the blind man’, I couldn’t trust my brother. I always thought his instructions were not so clear or too late. Once I hit something ahead, then I blamed him. “why didn’t you warn me?”, “I did, but you move faster than me before I warned you!” he replied.
“be careful! Move to your right!” he shouted
I asked, “how far?”, “hmm…maybe it’s about three steps!” then I walked three big steps to the right, and I hit a wall!
“hey, u said ‘three steps’!” I complained.
“yup, but not big steps, small steps!”
we always argued when he became a partner in that game!
I thought I had to memorize every corner and every things in my house for that game.



A bigger challenge in that game was come to my mind;
We played it on the street when we went home after school.
We could hear the cars, motorcycle, and everything on the streets, and there were many holes on the streets where we used to walk.
I knew how danger it was, so I held my brother’s hand tightly and he did also, he just closed his eyes and listened to my instructions.
“sista, there’s a car in front of us! Is it going to hit us?” his voice raised panickly.
“nope, don’t be afraid!”
“but I hear its voice so clearly! Pretty closed!”
“don’t worry, it’s going to turn right, see? it’s gone!”
Sometimes when things run well, I just remained silent, and my brother became panic “sista, are you still there?” “sure! Can’t you feel my hands?”
“but why you are silent?” “I will never leave you, dear!”
But when it’s my turn to be ‘the blind man’, I learned it’s not an easy thing to trust all of my steps (life) with my brother. I was always tempted to open my eyes!and I prefer to lose the game than trusting him.



The game above is like my life when walking with God.
Can I really trust Him when I live my life?
Do I hear his voice when He gave his instructions or I just worry and listen to others’ voice?
Do I always take the initiate to walk and ignore to His guidance? Remember, God knows all! past, present and future! He knows the best for us, but we always think and act as we know better than God, sometimes we ‘teach’ Him how to lead us, how to bless us and how to satisfy our wants!
Yet, we still worry too much.
Have you ever thought it’s like insulting the Lord by not trusting Him who promised “For I know the purposes which I am purposing for you, says the Lord; purposes of peace and not of evil; to give you a future and a hope” Jer 29:11, NIV.